Last 8 months

I am returning to blog after a very very very long time...I do like writing so after dithering here I am posting for the first time in nine months and what an incredible learning curve these nine months have been. Most of them have been career related...Interviews, assessment centres and what not...company after company, big..small...niche..I have tried everywhere...Everything has been so near yet so far...I have been in touching distance but not quite made it as yet...Rolls Royce, Cadbury, exxon, Shell, deloitte, L'oreal,P&G..;phew the list is huge...and in between I have stirred my soul, asked myself questions and found no answers....is it all worth?..why have I been shortlisted among 10000 applications but cant make it when it comes to the final four?....
To start of, I knew of the supposedly unsurmountable challenge I had to climb.... A foreign national graduate who wanted to make it on his own terms..he did not want to compromise and get into any graduate job...The last 2 years and a bit have been a challenge but I have enjoyed my time...the journey , the self discovery. I have literally seen myself develop a ruthless side to me , a new tough mayank...However, it has just not been good enough... To be fair I have been mostly positive during this entire time...fighting through each interview, taking on board every feedback, learning from my mistakes....but as I said before not good enough...
the world is about results and rightly or wrongly I view myself with the eyes of the world. Although I must admit, I have started to believe that life is more about how you reach your goal than the actual goal itself. The more one chases the end result, the more frustrating it gets....and one loses the meaning of why he/she has embarked upon the arduous journey. Life is not just about success/failure because no matter how society views you , you are not a success or failure till you feel that way. Societies' views are transient, spur of the moment...they change..but one should not take them too seriously....
There are too many personalities out there who have achieved immortality by enjoying what life has brought them than worrying about succeeding/failing...winning/losing....David Ogilvy went on an Amish farm, was a chef in Paris..before becoming the ad genius we know of. Steve Jobs, Richard Branson...even Narayana Murthy..These guys have never worried too much about the end goal, more about how you get there...I think that has made them fearless..and ultimately successful...